I feel like it has been too long since I’ve sat down to reflect. But something beckoned me to sit down and start writing. I should be asleep, but my thoughts have to be organized first – so here we are…
For the past few weeks, I’ve been insanely busy student teaching and attempting to have a social life. Looking at me on the outside, I probably look like a chicken with its head cut off. The inside is not much different…
The past few weeks being back in Boone have been confusing and peace has been difficult to find. The world is going a little crazy and fighting seems to be everywhere these days – but that’s another post. (Please love your enemy, your best friend, and everyone in between). The fighting is not just all around us. It is also in my heart and my brain. And I am sure that you could be struggling too with this invisible war.
Today was kind of a revelation of what I’m fighting. The answer rang clear as I responded to an email to another blogger who I adore. Her stuff speaks so much truth. I realized I am fighting against myself instead of for myself. Why is this the case?
I’ve fought myself on being content, on being joyful, on making sure I teach the right content in 3rd grade; the list goes on and on and on. When I’m fighting myself, I’m letting Satan have his way. He wants us confused and weak and unable to stand firm.
We should NOT be fighting ourselves. I’m starting a Bible study with a friend called the Armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18) – maybe you’ve heard of it. If not, it is all about putting on the full armor of God and fighting against the enemy. And by fighting the enemy (who is very real, y’all), we begin to learn how to fight for ourselves.
Today the light bulb went off in my mind that told me I need to fight for myself and fight for joy, for others, for grace, for love, for truth. For Christ.
Last week, I was ready to throw in the towel and let Satan win. But that’s not what God wrote. He says that He wins. Who am I to give into Satan when Christ has already won the victory of every battle that I fight? He has the final victory, but that does not mean I stop fighting.
Very slowly, I am learning why it is important to fight for myself and to fight for joy on the hard days. The joy is there. It’s there because Christ is there. (1000 Gifts)
I pray that each of you will be able to stand firm and fight the good fight of the faith. I pray that you will put on the whole armor of God. I pray that you will fight for joy because you deserve it. The Lord has so much joy and goodness to give you. Stop giving into the enemy and lean into our Savior – who fights right alongside us.
(I also got a tattoo – which has been a CONSTANT reminder of Jesus’ love for me. He died so that I can live. And there is nothing more beautiful than that.)